Perspectives, Post partum

Sundar Majhi Ladki (My Darling Beautiful) – Emotions of an Adoptive Mother

Mothers Love

My daughter Maira is a child born from my heart. She didn’t grow within me and yet she is so much a part of me. Her breathe, skin and cell is a part of ME. My darling beautiful adopted daughter – Maira, she is ME.

One year has gone and it just feels like yesterday when we were doing our couple tête-à-tête, filling out numerous forms, taking copies, talking to friends, leaning on them for support and the list is endless. Voila! and now Maira is 1. So many sleepless nights, the post-adoption depression, the dry Bangalore summer, my full-time contractual assignment with a startup, sab kuch ullta pullta. Life has a funny way of throwing so many curveballs at the same time. But we thrived – my adopted daughter and I, together.

Adopting was the right choice for us and I cannot imagine life without my darling.

Holding her always remains an electric moment, just the way it was that first time. She looked like dumpling made fully out of homemade butter when my eyes first fell on her perfection. I don’t think I have ever felt more lost in my life. The past year flew away in perfecting the balancing act of trying to hold her comfortable, be comfortable myself and not getting her to cry. It still remains a challenge.

She looked beautiful in the fleece blanket that was swaddled around her and in that 42 degree furnace. She smiled with her thumb struck like a popsicle in her mouth, a guarded smile. As if she knew what the challenges we had. I spent that day holding her, admiring her perfection and hoping she will be my daughter. The feeling of her fragile weight on my chest was indescribable. And after that day, I did not want to leave her there even for a second. My daughter belonged at our home. But we had to complete the formalities before we could  take her home legally. She resided in my heart and became a part of our family.

The past year hasn’t been easy. Like any new parent will tell you, it involved many sleepless nights and juggling acts. Adopting was the right choice for us and I cannot imagine life without my darling.

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